investigating when i started gloomy posting..

i was looking at my timeline on facebook and i realized a majority of my posts on my timeline has to do with the LACK of support i receive. then i wondered when these types of posts started exactly.. i'm pretty sure i just made posts about my rehabilitation when my grandma was still living (i think that i probably started around the time that my grandma died because i remember crying to my grandma almost every phone conversation towards the end of her life because i felt like courage kenny-do-NOTHING-BUT-UNDERESTIMATE-PEOPLE-TO-REMAIN-TELLING-INSURANCE-COMPANIES-FALSE-SHIT-SO-THEY-CAN-ACTUALLY-HAVE-CLIENTS-THAT-ARE-UNADVOCATED-FOR-SO-THEY-CAN-ACTUALLY-STAY-IN-BUSINESS. AMANDA DOESN'T CARE ABOUT THAT THOUGH! SHE JUST CARES ABOUT LOOKING "GOOD" TO IN-LAWS AND OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS ASSUMING I AM THE PROBLEM- SO I DON'T WANNA "HELP" MYSELF. (so she's basically CARELESSLY ENABLING them) "help" myself by going on easy ass machines you sit on and move your feet forward and backward, while moving some bars forward and backward at the same time ALL THE TIME and expect it to somehow help my ambulation? (you can even google "nu-step machine" on google to see the shit they always tried to stick me on) nonono. after about 7 years of that shit- i just stopped going since no one was offering me any TRULY HELPFUL alternatives to help me in life. courage-kenny was just taking advantage of my LACK of ADVOCACY by my unbelievebly UNsupportive cousin amanda (who only cares about looking supportive and good to people who just blindly believe everything she says). so GO FIND SOMETHING ELSE TO POLISH YOUR EGO WITH MY STUPID MOM AND THE REST OF THE IDIOTS WHO ACTUALLY BELIEVE YOU. *YOU* HAVE NEVER PERSONALLY SEEN THE SHIT COURAGE KENNY HAS THEIR CLIENTS DO BECAUSE YOU ASSUME HAVING A SISTER-IN-LAW THAT WORKS THERE AUTOMATICALLY MAKES YOU LOOK "SUPPORTIVE". because i don't live for making unsupportive liars look "smart" and "caring".. i've managed to find a way to do things MY way because THIS IS MY LIFE I'M LIVING! NOT MY MOM'S (WHO I'M CONVINCED JUST WANTS COMPANY LIVING OFF SOCIAL SECURITY AND TALKING TO HER DOGS WHILE UNEMPLOYED).. NOT AMANDA'S (WHO JUST DOES EVERYTHING SHE THINKS WILL MAKE HER LOOK "GOOD").. MY LIFE. if my mom really wanted to be different than what my grandma assumed would be good for her- she'd be trying to get things going the way SHE wants. STACY DOES NOT EQUAL A JUNIOR TRACY. GO RUIN SOMEONE ELSE'S LIFE WITH YOUR DELUSIONS. I GOT SHIT TO DO IN ORDER TO GET MY FUCKING LIFE BACK. I KEEP IN MIND WHEN KEVIN HART SAYS, "DON'T BE A BITCH." TO KEEP ME MOTIVATED. A CERTAIN PARENT NEEDS TO TAKE THE SAME ADVICE.